Dawn and Alvis
Thank you, Lord, for letting me have a good heart to heart with Dawn. Thank you for letting her enjoy her visit with Alvis and Gloria. I hope that Alvis and Gloria learn something from the email I sent them. Thank you for guiding me to hunger/fullness. Thank you for making me be at a big fat zero loss this week. I am fine with that. I feel good and want to eat only when I need to. I enjoyed my lunch and my small piece of cake and small spoon of ice cream. The cake was delicious as well as the whopper junior and french fries. Please help me eat good tonight at the birthday dinner.
Add a comment January 17, 2011
Free as a butterfly………….
Dear Lord: I was just reading about perfectionism and emotional eating. I have been in denial over the emotional eating thing. I am an emotional eater. I thought that emotional eating was just that when you are upset you turn to food. Now I realize that it is much more than that. People pleasing eating is also emotional. Every one else is eating so I can too is another form of it. One of the blogs I read last night said that sometimes your mind tells you when you are full and then Katie said on her blog that sometimes all she needs is a couple of bites of something rich and she is satisfied. This morning my stomach was growling and I didn’t have many choices so I decided to eat a granola bar. About half way through my mind said I didn’t want anymore and I feel satisfied. I realize I am not full but I definitely do not want another bite of that. Since this is breakfast, I know lunch will be here quick.
Another thing I read was that sometimes intuitive eating brings you back to eating how you did when you were a child. I know that breakfast is suppose to be good for me but I have never liked it. When I do eat it, I don’t like feeling too full first thing in the morning for some reason. The only reason I ate a little something this morning was because I was for sure hungry.
Thank you Lord for caring about me and for leading me to the hunger/fullness way of eating that you designed. I have tried it off and on for years but I realize that sometimes I eat for control. Maybe because I feel like I have no control sometimes. Please help me remember that you are in control of me and that you are taking care of me.
I love that you didn’t just give us manna to eat. That you gave us lots of food to enjoy. Sometimes I have a hard time deciding what I want to eat.
I also remember that sometimes when I have lost weight naturally in the past it was because I felt like I didn’t want to feel over full. Sometimes I would just eat a piece of pie for dinner.
Please Lord, forgive me if I didn’t feed Jessica right back then. I should have instilled healthy habits in her.
Thank you for giving me my beautiful family and wonderful friends. Please bless them and keep them safe and healthy for me. I don’t have to say each ones name because I know you know who they are.
Amen
1 comment January 16, 2011
Thank you!
I was looking around for some success stories for intuitive eating or hunger/fullness eating. I found a cute girl with a informative blog. She is a Christian too. She has some good info. I know I shouldn’t doubt that this type of eating works but I just get worried. Apparently that is part of the problem of having an eating disorder is that you worry about food constantly. I am also excited to know that to talk to you I don’t have to be all formal. My thoughts randomly thrown to you through out the day are fine as well as more formal prayers. I do think you are an amazing God and I do get excited when I think of the love you have for us. I am excited about that verse learning thing too. I don’t know that many verses but would love to learn more.
Tonight we ate mexican! I feel satisfied and not over stuffed. I hope I am able to get to the body you want me to have.
Add a comment January 16, 2011
Prayer
I know I struggle with my prayer life. I was reading around on the web about loosing weight with God and was told that the Doctor ordered a large daily dose of prayer. Lord, I know I need you. I am going to use this blog to type my prayers to you. I do not like counting calories. I feel like you would rather me listen to you and my body than count calories. The thing that frustrates me the most is half the time you don’t know exactly how many you are eating. Lord, I am scared about this tax season with this rapid refund deal. I trust you to get me through everything. I don’t even know where to begin talking to you. I usually send up just a few words in prayer now and then. Thank you so much for my beautiful daughter, Jessica. She makes me so happy. I know that you have great and wonderful plans for her. Please guide her into what you want for her life. It is not what I want but what she wants. Thank you so much for Alan. I love him and I know that his is my Proverbs 3:5 MAN. Please work with us and help us get along better about money. I don’t know what the answer is but I know you do. I know he loves you and I am proud of the man that he has become. If it is your will for Bill and Wendy to move, then let them move. I don’t want them to go. Church will not be the same without them. Please Lord just help me get through the day. Thank you for caring enough to talk to me. I love the verse you gave me: I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything to hard for me? – sometimes I must think so. I know you are more powerful than me and I know you are a lot smarter. The amazing thing is that you love me like my Daddy does and you don’t think I am so silly. You are proud of me and want me to be yours. You love me even when you see the bad things and bad thoughts I have had. You look at my heart and see the darkside of me and love me anyway. Thank you for making me feel special to you! Thank you for hunting me down and making me yours. Thank you for the shephard picture at church. I love being the sheep bringing the lambs to you and I love being the lamb in your lap. I love you.
I am about to go to McDonald’s and get a hamburger and fries because I like it and it is cheap. Please help me realize when to stop. I hate to leave food behind. Please work with me on this.
Love, Connie
1 comment January 13, 2011
Back in the saddle again…..
We are having a Biggest Looser Contest at work. I am so excited this time. Last week I tried to eat around 1200 calories or a little over and I lost 2.2 lbs. This week I was feeling bad so I ate a little more and weigh 1 lb more. I am not concerned because I think I need to pay attention to my body. I think that the Lord is telling me to pay attention to my body not to deprive myself. I titled this “Back in the saddle again….” because I am back at trying to loose weight again. I feel like God wanted me to come back here and read my old posts too. Thank you Lord for leading me every day. I see last year my goal was 30 minutes of wii fit a day. I had a lot of fun doing wii fit last night. I would love to do an hour a day but we will see. I am sure that some days during tax season I will not feel like doing any at all.
Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5
Add a comment January 12, 2011
Distractions
I need to remember that to be successful in weight loss efforts you have to stay committed. Obviously you are going to have bad days but you shouldn’t have a bad month like I just did. I have got to stay focused and remember to take one day at a time. When I jump off of the wagon, I need to climb back on immediately. This past weekend I was on a mini vacation with my friends. At times, when I was eating I could feel my body telling me no but my taste buds wanted more. I have got to give up the greed in my heart for more food. Lord, I am putting my trust in you that I can take this one day at a time.
Add a comment March 8, 2010
Discipline and Self Control….
Wow! The Lord works in mysterious ways. A friend at church gave me the Joyce Meyer’s Beauty from Ashes cds to listen to. The second cd is about addictions. We all have addictions of some sorts. People pleasers are addicted to having people approval. That is me. I worry to death about what people think about me. After hearing this tape, I still let myself fall into the trap of pleasing someone else. My dh and I went to Steak and Shake. After I was halfway thru my meal, I didn’t want any more. I was afraid he would fuss about it so I ate some more of the burger. I was being so silly because he didn’t say a word about me leaving food. I think I was worried because it isn’t the kind of food you can save for later. Well I paid the price with a terrible stomach ache. It was so silly and I should have just stopped eating. One of Joyce’s points was that we are not suppose to keep eating after we feel full. The tapes are not about diets but she used that as an example of not taking proper care of ourselves. I felt like God was sending me that message too since I am trying to eat healthier. God confirmed to me he wanted me to hear these tapes because I was going to look up a bible verse to share at church and while I was on my way home Joyce used that exact verse in her message. I love it when the Lord is speaking to me and I hear him. I am sure there are a lot of times he is waving his arms in front of me, trying to get my attention, and I just keep on going like he isn’t even there. What a shame for me. I miss out on a lot of helpful information when I am not paying attention.
Add a comment January 31, 2010
Thank you, God….
I am so excited that God is leading me to take one day at a time and to trust in him to meet all of my wants and needs. I have a bad habit of worrying about the future. I don’t like it that sometimes you just have to wait and see how it all folds out. Jesus says in Matthew that we shouldn’t worry about tomorrow because today has enough trouble of its own. Amen to that. In the past when I got scared I would either worry myself to death or tell myself “Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, trust in the Lord with all of your heart…..” then I would let go and let God. I realized when I stopped worrying and started trusting that I felt a lot more peace inside. When I get scared now, I am still going to repeat my Trust in the Lord verse a few times but I am also going to remind myself that Jesus wants me to take life one day at a time.
Add a comment January 27, 2010
I can do all things with Christ who strengthens me…
I have been so excited all weekend about starting my Free To Be Me lifestyle change today. I am a little tired now that it is actually Monday morning and I feel like I need some caffeine. Normally I wouldn’t worry because I would go get chick-fil-a sweet tea on the way to the office. I stayed up too late Saturday night and Sunday night. I will head out in a few and weigh……dreading seeing that number. Alan got me a cute purse with retro Mickey and Minnie cartoon pics on it. One pic shows Minnie standing on the scale saying “Oh My God…..”. That will be me today!!!!! I just looked up and saw what I titled today’s post. I can do all things with Christ who strengthens me…. When I turn into Walmart instead of Chick-fil-a, I will remind myself of this verse. I gotta go get some fat free milk, bread, baked chips, light mayo, and lunch meat for the week. Please God give me the strength to stay on track…. That has been my problem with weight watchers…I will loose about 10 pounds and then fall off the wagon – I don’t get it. This time I am going to take one day at a time with Jesus by my side. When I fall off the wagon, I will dust myself off and get right back on. Good luck to meeee!!!!!
1 comment January 25, 2010
Fun party…
Last night I had a lot of fun at Holly’s jewelry party. My friend and her daughter were there. Haven’t been able to spend time with them in a while and I had a lot of fun. I am still excited about tomorrow….eating healthy. I am going to try to get my husband and daughter to eat healthier too. My niece Bri started blogging and gave me the idea to give it a try…. She has only posted one blog…..Can’t wait to see her next one…..
Add a comment January 24, 2010
